Just in case you didn't already know...

I know I've been all over facebook with this but I had to blog it too...Julie is not doing well. She is not eating or drinking--she accepts ice chips or gatorade chips but that's about it. She has days/weeks to live. Joy and Ted have sacrificed sooooo much to take care of her. Her husband is not helping to pay funeral expenses. She had no life insurance. She has been physically and financially supported by Joy and Ted for quite a while now. Her final days are approaching and they NEED money to pay for Julie's final expenses. To donate, go to www.juliesfund.blogspot.com and click the paypal icon or choose whatever method you want. They NEED your help. I don't care who you are or how you came across this blog...I know times are tough but Julie deserves a proper memorial. If you want to learn more about Julie, go to www.caringbridge.org/visit/juliez

I saw Julie again today and my heart breaks. She is simply not the same girl I saw 2 weeks ago before my trip to NY. She could not walk today, so they wheeled her into the bedroom. She's skinny and I mean SKINNY. Joy said she was 134lbs at her doctor's appt the other day. Her eyes are sunken and she has circles under her eyes. She took some ice chips, a mini Dove bar and a little rice and that was it. She seems very disconnected. She was "with it" a lot more today than Friday--she seemed to pay a lot more attention to what was going on around her. Unfortunately, I believe Julie's smiles are gone forever. *cry* I was really hoping that she was only having a bad day on Friday and that she would still smile another day. But we didn't get ANY emotion out of her tonight...Amber even told a hilarious story that I know would have had Julie audibly laughing (at least the way she laughed, which was a strange kinda noise but I liked it) 2 weeks ago. Julie stared into space. I'm going over there tomorrow while Joy and Ted go to the funeral home (sigh) to continue the feeding of ice/gatorade chips/twizzlers/whatever. I just want to help her feel comfortable and loved, and I want Joy and Ted to be able to just fucking relax a little (yeah right) and spend time with Julie while she's still here. I feel like a hospice nurse and a friend all in one, lol.

Anyway, that's what's going on right now. I have a feeling I'll be posting more tomorrow.